| Location | Bielefeld,germany & Worthing,west Sussex,uk |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Still Birth |
| Date of Birth | 05/03/2007 |
| Date of Death | 05/03/2007 |
| Visitors | 4,694 since 30/03/2007 |
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"A still birth , But still a birth"
This memorial website was created in the memory of our loved one, Angelika Taylor who was born sleeping in Bielefeld, Germany on March 05, 2007. We will remember her forever...
***Please see Angelika's other site http://angelika-taylor.memory-of.com***
"An Angel in the book of life wrote down my baby’s birth and whispered as she closed the book… "Far too beautiful for Earth"
"No farewell words were spoken
No time to say "Goodbye"
You were gone before I knew it
and only God knows why
My heart still aches with sadness
and secret tears will flow
What it meant to love you
No one can ever know"
I feel able to tell you what happened now, In fact to see it written down may make me able to see some sense of it all.
In the early hours of Saturday morning the 3rd March about 1am I was feeling quite bloated and heavy, I went to the bathroom and strained a little at that point I felt something come down inside my cervix, the next thing i knew i was in the Gilead hospital in Bielefeld, They scanned me and it showed that baby Angelika was fine but my cervix had opened fully, at this point the sac was in tact. I was given drip after drip of antibiotics to fight an infection that they felt had caused the opening of the cervix. All through this time I had no pain just a bit of a fever.
On the sunday they took me to theatre and did a cervical stitch, they told me that there was a very slim chance that this would work as any infection might have already reached the womb. I woke at 03:35 Monday morning feeling very wet , my waters had broken.
I was rushed to a room where they tried to remove the stitch as any contractions would have made my cervix rupture which could have been fatal. After 3 hours they finally cut it out , the pain was unbearable and I was pumped full of morphine, They said that things may happen quickly but could also take days, after scanning they found that Angelika had no fluid left around her although her heart was still beating strongly - she was not moving much at all though - I was advised that should she get the infection then there would be distress caused to her, the last thing we wanted.
My white blood cell count was rising fast and I was becoming weaker.....induction was the only choice left.
They gave me 2 little pills to tell my body to start to let go of our little girl, by 5pm Monday eve they gave me one more tablet. After that me and DH walked to the chapel in the hospital where I lit a candle and said a prayer for out special angel. before I made back up to my room the contractions had started with such force I could barely walk. They took us straight to the delivery room where the lights were out and just candles lit , I decided on no pain relief as I wanted to feel everything, not to miss a thing.
At 18:53 on Monday the 5th of March Angelika was born into this world sleeping,she looked so peaceful and so very perfect, she weighed 225g and was 23cm in length, such long legs and the most beautiful little hands, we held her for so long and the Padre came and baptised her in my arms, I only had 25 mins with her as my placenta would'nt come away and I was losing so much blood, at that time I cared nothing for me and just wanted to die with her, in fact a massive part of me died with her at that time.
They then took her while I was rushed to theatre for a d&c ,blood transfusion and tests for infection. When I came, round later that night my DH said that they had taken pictures and foot and hand prints of Angelika and that he and her had spent some time with the Padre. The nurses came and gave me something to knock me out for the next 12 hours.
Now we are taking our Angel back to the UK for a full and proper funeral. The MOD are sorting out the repatriation and she will flying back in to Heathrow next Wednesday morning.
It all seems such a bad dream right now and although I know it has happened , I just don't want to believe it.
I have achieved something that I never though possible.............I gave birth.
Little consolation but gives me hope for the future, She will always be our first born , and if God willing any other children should follow they will always know of their big sister Angelika.
I could not have wished for better care from the hospital staff,HLO,Padre and the welfare officers , they have all been amazing. My husband and I owe a great deal of thanks to them all.
Angelika's funeral was peaceful and beautiful,as it should be for our little Princess , I love you Angelika, with all my heart xxx
If roses grow in Heaven,
Lord please pick some pink ones for me,
Place them in my daughters arms
and tell her they're from me.
Tell her I love her and miss her,
And when she turns to smile,
Place a kiss upon her cheek
and hold her for awhile.
Because remembering her is easy,
I do it everyday.
But there's an ache within my heart
That will never go away.
Goodnight my precious Angel, You are in my heart forever.
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~R.I.P~
Happy Birthday In Heaven - by Winnie Lovett
"Happy Birthday Angelika "
It's sure to be the best one yet,
Though you left us here behind.
Did you think that we'd forget?
Your cake this year, will surely be,
A beauty to behold.
With the icing made of Silver,
And the candles made of Gold.
Yes, your birthday in Heaven,
Will be such a grand affair.
And I know you'll look so lovely,
With a halo in your hair.
The Angels will come from everywhere,
To sing your birthday song.
And I know they'll be so happy,
That you've joined, God's Happy Throng.
No I can't send a card this year,
Or give a gift so fine.
So I'll just send a special prayer,
To that wonderful Daughter of yours.
Copyright of Winnie Lovett
In a baby castle, just beyond your eye,
Your baby plays with angel toys that money cannot buy.
Who are you to wish him back into this world of strife,
No, play on your baby, they'll have eternal life.
At night when all is silent and sleep forsakes your eyes,
You'll hear their tiny footsteps come running to your side
Their little hands caress you so tenderly and sweet,
You'll breathe a prayer and close your eyes and embrace them in your sleep.
Now you have a treasure that you rate above all others
You have known true glory,
You are still their mother.
Precious Child by Karen Taylor Good
In my dreams, you are alive and well
Precious child, precious child
In my mind, I see you clear as a bell
Precious child, precious child
In my soul, there is a hole
That can never be filled
But in my heart, there is hope
'Cause you are with me still
In my heart, you live on
Always there never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
In my plans, I was the first to leave
Precious child, precious child
But in this world, I was left here to grieve
Precious child, my precious child
In my soul, there is a hole
That can never be filled
But in my heart there is hope
And you are with me still
In my heart you live on
Always there, never gone
Precious child, you left too soon,
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
God knows I want to hold you,
See you, touch you
And maybe there's a heaven
And someday I will again
Please know you are not forgotten until then
In my heart you live on
Always there never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
Happy Birthday Angel - by Ingrid Aspey
Angelika today on your Birthday we wish you love
And hope you are happy in heaven above
I hope you and your friends are having lots of fun
Bouncing on the clouds and playing happily in the sun
When it’s time for your tea there is plenty of cake
That all the kind Angels did lovingly bake
With three candles upon it to mark your Birthday
We wish you were here but you couldn’t stay
Your Family all miss and dearly love you
They are thinking of you and sending lots of love too
When your party is over and you’re tucked into bed
Dream sweet dreams of them as you lay down your head
Happy Birthday Lots of Love and Kisses to You XX
Copyright© Ingrid Aspey 2009
Born Asleep - by Unknown Author
“Born Asleep" - such a beautiful phrase,
Always touches me to the core.
The broken cries of a Mother's heart
When it just can't take anymore.
I open my heart, one Mum to another,
So you never lose your hope,
That although it gets no easier,
I promise you'll learn to cope.
Remember your Angel is sleeping
In a world much kinder than ours
And will always be there to hold your hand
Even in your darkest hours.
My own little Angel will keep an eye,
And play with yours in their park.
But you must find your love and strength,
And feed your own little spark.
You'll never be alone my friend,
I will always understand.
If the tides loom up to swallow you,
Just reach out and grab my hand.
If only our children were easter eggs
We'd have a heavenly easter egg hunt
All with baskets in our hands
Searching with a broken heart
Only we can understand
'Oh, look i found your child over here'
'Hey did anyone find mine?'
They are so beautifully coloured
They sparkle and they shine
These aren't your usual easter eggs
They each have their own specail glow
That comes from way down deep within
Only a grieving parent would know
We gather up our special eggs
With excitment all around
For the gift that we've been given
For the treasures that we've found
We all now stare with wonderment
At our children that have died
We want to hold them once again
And release them from inside
But, we all begin to realise
We have to crack the beautiful shell
The one that makes them sparkle and glow
The one they have earned so well
We know we cannot destroy this beauty
And take them from their place
So we give them an understanding kiss
As a tear runs down our face
One by one we take the baskets
With our beautiful coloured eggs
And place them gently on the grass
As we turn and walk away
We look back in amazment
As our eggs begin to sing
We see them flutter and move out
'Look our eggs all now have wings'
Then the golden egg begins to speak..
'Your children are safe with me
You'll be with them when the time is right
Together for Eternity'
We stand there in a circle of love
As we look up to the sky
Watching our radiant eggs take flight
Knowing our children can now fly
by christine ross
HAPPY EASTER
WITH LOVE FROM KERRY
BABY JACK AND TABITHA'S MUMMY XX
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I thought of you and closed my eyes
And prayed to God today
I asked 'What makes a Mother?'
And I know I heard him say
A Mother has a baby
This we know is true
But, God, can you be a mother
When your baby's not with you?
Yes, you can he replied
With confidence in his voice
I give many women babies
When they leave it is not their choice
Some I send for a lifetime
And others for the day
And some I send to feel your womb
But there's no need to stay
I just don't understand this God
I want my baby here
He took a breath
and cleared his throat
And then I saw a tear
I wish I could show you
What your child is doing today
If you could see your child smile
With other children and say
'We go to earth to learn our lessons
of love and life and fear
My mummy loved me so very much
I got to come straight here
I feel so lucky to have a Mum who had so much love for me
I learned my lessons very quickly
My Mummy set me free.
I miss my Mummy oh so much
But I visit her each day
Each night When she is asleep
On her pillow is where I lay
I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek
And whisper in her ear
Mummy don't be sad today
I'm your baby and I am here'
So you see my dear sweet one
Your children are okay
Your babies are here in My home
And this is where they'll stay
They'll wait for you with Me
Until your lessons are through
And on the day you come home
they'll be at the gates for you
So now you see
What makes a Mother
It's the feeling in your heart
It's the love you had so much of
Right from the very start
Though some on earth
May not realize
Until their time is done
Remember all the love you have
And know that you're
A Very Special Mum!
Thinking of you on Mothers Day.XXX
God bless the grieving mother...
In January as the snow flakes fall...
And as a new year dawns...
For her memories will comfort her...
Through winter, spring, summer, and fall.
God bless the grieving mother...
In February during the month of love...
She sends her hugs..on the wings of a dove...
And her kisses are blown to the moon above.
God bless the grieving mother...
In March and on St Patricks Day...
A beautiful rainbow...a symbol of hope...
Which colours her world..in a magical way.
God bless the grieving mother...
On Easter In April as she stops to pray...
Thanking God for the gift of everlasting life...
Knowing she will be reunited someday.
God bless the grieving mother...
On Mothers Day and thru the month of May...
Whose memories are like threads of gold...
For they will never tarnish....or go away.
God bless the Grieving mother...
In June as her tears fall like the rain...
Please comfort her...and give her strength
and peaceful days to help ease the pain.
God bless the grieving mother...
In July as the fireworks light up the sky afar...
Just like her memories light up her heart...
And she wishes upon an evening star.
God bless the grieving mother...
In August...as the sun shines through...
Who's life moves on...thru ups and downs..
Whose heart is so tender and true.
God bless the grieving mother...
In September as the leaves turn and fall...
Her childs life forever etched in her heart..
Her childs name entered on the memorial wall.
God bless the grieving mother...
In October...with the harvest colours all around....
Please guide her on her journey of grief...
and keep her safe and sound.
God bless the grieving mother...
In November...a time to give thanks and pray...
Who is so thankful for each precious memory..
But wishes with all her heart...just for one more day
God bless the grieving mother...
In December as Christmas nears...
Please bless her with the gift of peace...
And many great friends to help dry her tears.
God bless the grieving mother...
Each day throughout the year...
As seasons come and go...
And time unfolds...
Day by day...
Month by month...
Year by year...
and especially today...on this Mother's day.
FROM YOUR CHILD
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On this Mothers Day I find it
very very hard,
For I can not give to you
a special gift or card,
Because I am now an Angel
I live in heaven above,
But my Darling Mother
I always send my LOVE
We have a bond between us
that nothing can ever break,
I will stay beside you
Thats a promise I now make
You have always been so special
my darling Mother of mine,
I will go on loving you
Until the end of time.
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Love you always Mummy
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